One year ago, when lockdowns took place, I was hopeful that all will just fall back to its usual places. That this is just temporary, and all will be back to normal eventually. One year after, and still the virus is never totally contained or eradicated. It costed millions of lives around the world to date. Vaccines may have been developed, but it still takes time to achieve herd immunity. I have not heard of a cure being developed either. Nonetheless, I thought before we would survive this temporary predicament. I dutifully obeyed during the first few months to stay in the house despite it costed me my mental health. I remained vigilant on the threat of the virus. But due to this pandemic, it may not have threatened me physically, but it affected my whole life in more ways possible.
Emergency funds eventually got depleted
They say prepare an emergency fund good for 6 months. I did have that, but the pandemic is not only for 6 months. It still lasted until now and who knows until when. I am not a business minded person that has entrepreneurial skills. I am the type who works hard on a job and save up. Thankfully I do still have work, but it is not only me that I am feeding. I have a family to support and some of them lost their jobs. It made me the breadwinner, and my earnings are not enough to feed a lot. At first it was still manageable, yet eventually I feel am sinking.
To work on my dream is a struggle
Have you been in a situation wherein you are working for so long on your dream but a portion of you feels like giving it up because of the current situation? I am already far from the first step I took in following my dream. I am very close, but the pandemic seems a hurdle to me right now. I am looking for a support, but it looks harder to ask currently.
Limiting my movements
I am a person who values freedom so much, but these days, our movements are limited, and I hate that. I like to be anywhere I want to be as long as my capacity permits me, not because I am not allowed due to restrictions caused by an unusual source of our time. When I want to travel right now, too many requirements to comply and options are limited, thus it is more expensive. Therefore, leisure travel is totally just a dream for most of us at the moment.
Yet whatever I am, or we are going through right now, there is no other way but to move forward. We just keep going. We learn to live and adjust with the current conditions. Life right now would be different if this pandemic never happened but maybe there is a reason beyond our understanding why this is happening despite the time for this is too much to bear already. However, we really don’t know what plan is really laid for us. We are born on the time that this must take place, so on how we humans react to it is such a challenge.
When you feel like the weight of the world is on you, believe that it will be lighter one day. That one day, you will wake up and covid is gone. Not required to wear masks and seeing smiles again, travelling is back to business; economy is reopening, and living is better again. Just keep going.
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